*something you had before and you wanted it again even though you know it's wrong. practically SIN. (based from the book Narnia pt.2 by C.S. Lewis)
I paused there for a second and tried to process my answer for a reasonable question. My brain wont just start thinking. I said all sorts of random things that was a bit shallow for a teenager like me. No choice. I had to say it.
I rambled. Yes, I rambled. I didn't know what to answer. Well in fact, it was something I wanted.. again. My answer turned to be quite vague.
All the memories started to fly back right into my head --the memory of you in me.
Right, how could I immediately forget? Everything happened, well, not so long ago from now. How could I?
How could I forget the way I was in love with you? How could I forget how alluring was your devastating looks? How could I forget how endearing and charming you were? The memory of you cannot just easily escape my mind, can it?
I'll admit, I was quite infatuated by you. But how could I not be? I was indeed overwhelmed by the fact of having someone to love and care for me. But it wasn't a fact after all, it was all a fairy tale just like I see in movies. I understood that you had to leave, but you didn't even care to say "goodbye".
I can't believe how ridiculous you made me look. It turned out that I was just a piece of accessory for you. Not that I'm blaming you, but I turned my back on Him and had faith in me, only in me. I thought I didn't need Him since I had you. I thought everything was a taste of bliss but it turned out it wasn't. I learned from a big mistake, thanks to you.
Yes, I wanted all of these again and I know I'll have it in His perfect timing.
So much for my Turkish Delight.