Thursday, May 3, 2012

Is this what it feels like to really cry?

The lyrics of this song just caught me the moment Rachel sang it in the latest episode of Glee. It was originally sung by Kelly Clarkson, but I like the Glee Cast version better. Or maybe I'm just biased. 

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on 
When people all stare 
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk 

Whenever I see you
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue 
Pretend I'm okay with it all 
Act like there's nothing wrong 

Is it over yet? 
Can I open my eyes? 
Is this as hard as it gets? 
Is this what it feels like to really cry? 


If anyone asks, 
I'll tell them we just grew apart 
Yeah what do I care 
If they believe me or not 

Whenever I feel 
Your memory is breaking my heart 
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all 
Act like there's nothing wrong 

Is it over yet? 
Can I open my eyes? 
Is this as hard as it gets? 
Is this what it feels like to really cry? 


I'm talking in circles 
I'm lying, they know it 
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes? 
Is this as hard as it gets? 
Is this what it feels like to really cry?


College Jitters

I had a scheduled enrollment 2 Mondays ago and that was also the day when I got my registration form (which includes my schedule for the 1st semester this coming school year). I went to DLSU-D with my sister in the morning; and not much to my surprise, there were a lot of people crowded, waiting for their names to called. Although it surprised me that I didn't wait that long. I went home alone (commuted), by the way.  Gosh I feel so independent! 

Oh, and my schedule's not so tight than what I expected. My latest dismissal time ends at 4 p.m. It's like High School all over again! Haha :-)

I'm both excited and nervous for what will God hand me in college. I'll be ready as I'll ever be for whatever He has in store for me. So, bring it!

Monday, April 16, 2012

Photo Post (April 13, 2012)

The 13th of April 2012 was really a date to remember. Words aren't enough to describe what happened in that entire day. Pretty ineffable. From morning until the evening of that day was really amazing. I have no words to say anymore. So, yeah, photos.

James picked up Job and I in GCF, then we went to SM Southmall for a short while. James drove. :-)

The birthday girl!
Louise's mom had a cake customized for her that says, "Happy 16th Birthday Your Royal Awesome-ness. We Love You! Dad, Mom, Lj, & Mika"

One of the boys ;) We actually forced each of the boys to take a picture with Louise. That rarely happens okay.
All girls with the birthday girl!
Yeyy group shot!

F4 :)
 We saw some girls sticking post-it notes on the escalator wall. Very encouraging. :')

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

To Its Memoirs

Last Saturday [April 7, 2012], my family and I went to Laiya, San Juan, Batangas to hit the beach. While I was preparing my things for the trip the next day, I thought that anklets are perfectly worn in beaches. I have this anklet that my classmate gave me when she went to Boracay earlier this year. Oh actually, she gave one to each of the girls in our class. So anyway, I started to dig up my closet since I remembered putting it there. Thank goodness I found it.

I kind of consider it as a "friendship anklet" since all of us girls have one. Every time I see it or wear it, it reminds me so much of my girls —all the joyful, sad, and most especially the crazy moments with them come back to my memory. I can still even remember the reason why I chose the orange one (pink is my favorite color, as you can obviously notice). Okay, that's a whole different story.

I know it's a little early for me to be dramatic because of how I miss them already, but since I have a feeling that in College I would really tend to forget about them. Its purpose is, when I go back to my previous posts, I would be reminded of how blessed I am to have met them and to be with their company for 4 years. And not just the girls of my class, the boys and my teachers as well. :-)

Oh! A happy happy birthday to my teacher! :D I highly doubt that you'll get to read this, but I'll greet you here as well anyway. :-)

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Summer 2012

Just grabbed this .gif from Tumblr
It's quite late for me to blog about welcoming April, right? Haha, well, consider this as "Welcome, Summer."

For me, April is really when Summer officially starts ( I start the count down to college on April Fools'). It's Summer and I have all the time to do things. I just hope procrastination will not get in the way.


→ Clean le bedroom. Like really clean it. And some parts of le house, pobably.
Get with the program (exercise on a daily basis).
→ Don't forget to hang out with le high school classmates once in a while.
→ Start reading The Hunger Games. Wait, I still have to buy the books first before reading.
→ Go to the beach!
→ Get a Summer job!
→ Still update my diary daily.
→ Visit my brother in PMA in Baguio.
→ Sister-sister bonding time ;)
→ Tweak blogs
To not be forever alone even though my parents are both working, my sister will soon start with her OJT, and while my brother is in a military boarding school.


I'm looking forward to a total productivity this Summer! Bring it on!

Monday, April 2, 2012

Ending means beginning


March 27, 2012


The morning before my actual graduation was a total chaos. I didn't have shoes to wear, so my dad and I had to rush to the nearest mall to buy one; and I still had 4 letters to write for my dear teachers. I didn't have time to write those letters the day before because (1) I was in school from 8 a.m. until 3 p.m.; (2) I went to Makati with my brother right after school to attend Bible Study Fellowship International with him; and, (3) We arrived home around 12mn. So, sue me. I actually didn't get enough sleep I should have had the night before.

We had to be in school by 12:45 p.m. being the latest but my mom finished doing my hair and make-up around 1:15 p.m. Good thing they don't grade our punctuality anymore. Haha.

I was actually writing the last letter for one of my teachers during the ceremony. Yeah, I was that rushed. I just thanked by brain for not making me run out of words to write.

I really didn't expect this day to be dramatic because I swore to myself that a single drop of tear will not threaten to fall; but I failed myself, I was wrong, and I blame my English teacher for that. 

It was the "Aww" moment of hugging; laughter; and saying our I love yous, I'm going to miss yous, and our last goodbyes. Surely I'm going to miss these people who have been with me through ups and downs for the past 4 years.

To my classmates (although I highly doubt that any of you will get to read this), thank you for everything. I know it sounds cliche, but I'm just really grateful to the Lord for giving me a bunch of great people like you. Thank you for acknowledging my skills and abilities often times for you guys know that I am more on the right side of the brain. 
You guys are different from any of the classes I've encountered. I know we have our own flaws and all that stuff, but each of us learned to accept each other anyway. Each of your unique personalities balance the environment of the entire class, and that goes for mine as well. I wouldn't say "don't ever change," because we all know that we still need to tweak some parts of ourselves; but don't ever forget who you are and for whom you live for. 

The beautiful ladies of high school batch 2012.

The high school batch 2012 with the guest speaker, the principal, and our adviser (L-R).
 I know there will be times when I would wish to go back to my high school days and just savor each moments once again, but it's time to grow up and move on to the next phase.

An official high school graduate!

Friday, March 9, 2012


February, as far as I can conclude, was the best month of my last year as a high school student. Even though our school lacks extra-curricular activities and events and programs (e.g. prom), I felt like we've been too busy because of non-academical things. These activities had to take our class time:

First, our Graduation pictorial (Feb. 9)

Okay, actually every school has this. We just enjoyed the time putting on make-up, dressing-up, and taking pictures for the whole afternoon. I remember that week when us girls were panicking about our creative shots and just thought of random costumes and stuff like that. We even talked about it for like an hour with our teacher. Ha-ha. Since I can't think of anything else, I just decided to wear my tailor-made Greek goddess dress I wore in my Sophomore prom. Yup, I had my prom in my second year. Well, surprisingly, that night was magical. Okay anyway, I'll add the photos once they give me the soft copy. :-)

The formal Graduation picture
My creative shot
Just played around with the make-up artist

Second, the Anna Karenina play in English (Feb. 10)

We started practicing for this play 3 weeks before the play date. At first, it [Feb. 10] was just a tentative play date but then it became final. Oh, did I mention that I played Anna Karenina?
It was an awesome experience because it's our first ever English play. And this play came from all our efforts -even the script and the directing part. I realized that It's hard to ad-lib in English especially when you have to use old English. :-)
We had 2 performances, and the first one was supposed to be a rehearsal but it turned out to be better than the second performance. Lucky for those students who watched the first one. :-) 

We just forgot to do one thing though: To take pictures.

Third, The Bible Emphasis Week (Feb. 15-17)

Okay, more like "...Emphasis Days". I don't even know why they keep on calling it "...Emphasis Week" when it's just for 3 days.

"Bible Emphasis Week" has always been held yearly as a school event wherein all the students will only discuss lessons about God's Word, i.e., as I've mentioned above, non-academical. Since we are the oldest among the students, we assisted the classes we were assigned to and the teachers who taught in the lower levels (pre-schoolers until juniors). Our time assisting was counted as our working hours for CAT slash NSTP. I was assigned to the Grade 2 and man, they are more disciplined than the high school students! They always ask permission each time they'd stand up —when they have to get something from their shelf, or when they have to throw something. One kid even asked me if she can drink her medicine! Haha, there are so many little things that made me compare them to us. 
I was so blessed to be with them for 3 days. They're really a bunch of great kids. I was also thankful for being assigned to assist my English teacher. I distinguished the difference between the way she's with kids and the way she's with us. Haha. Ma'am, if you ever get to read this, I don't mean that the wrong way. :-)

Fourth, "Batingaw", our Filipino play (Feb. 24)

Two words, a masterpiece. It is (and was) the best play in the history of my school. Okay, I'm being too proud. Heh.

We started rehearsing 3 weeks before the final play date. Wait, I think it was only for 2 weeks. But in the last week of our rehearsals, it was the only time when we also rehearsed with actions, lights, and sounds. So, majority of our rehearsals were the line-throwing. I don't even know how we did it in just one week. Awesome.
Some of those who watched (like the principal, the teachers, and some parents) teared up because of the scenes that had the super high level of drama. Our play was pure awesomeness, as they said. Our principal was so impressed, amazed, and amused that she wanted us to do it again with parents watching. One point for the seniors. :-)

Fifth, Family Night Movie (Feb. 24)

This event is usually held in the morning. I just don't know what happened this year.

My family and I never attended this event for the past 3 years, but since it's my last year, I felt the urge to attend. I had to ask my dad to come home early for this day, I had to ask my sister to go straight to my school after her classes, and I had to force my brother to come.
Oh, the movie we watched? It's entitled Courageous. The movie is mainly for dads so our school really encouraged each student's dad or parents to attend. And all students who had their families with them that night will get a +5 in one subject of their choice (I will choose Math!). The event ended quite late —around 10 p.m.

Sixth, tree-planting (Feb. 25)

The next day after Family Night, us seniors had an early call-time. We had to be in school by 6:30 a.m. I got there by 7. Heh. :-) Our time here was also counted as working hours for our CAT, just like in The Bible Emphasis Week. 
We did our tree-planting in my classmate's resort in Pansol, Laguna. We took off by 7:30 a.m. and that's when the fun started. We stopped by Calamba to buy our food for lunch and it took us longer than it should so we got to the resort around lunch time. We did the tree-planting for like only an hour and started to prepare lunch as the guys played basketball. Oh, we had 4 chaperons to make lunch for us. But I helped! :-) Since it's a resort, we swam even though we weren't supposed to. :-)

Seventh, replay of Anna Karenina play (Feb. 27)

Our teacher said we have to do it again because the principal didn't get to watch it. We were just supposed to rehearse for that day and have the play shown the next day. But since the principal is not available the next day, we had to do it on that day with having nearly 5 hours of rehearsal. I had to recall my lines the previous day!

I have nothing much to say except our play sucked to the 1000000000th level. But this time, we got to take pictures. Yay! :-)

So there you have it. February was a very interesting month, and I'm not just talking about the events; the very climax is not yet on its way to the falling action. :-)

As for this month, there'll be tons of requirements and projects to accomplish. We're going to get ourselves drowned in school works before we graduate. Oh, dear.

I apologize. The photos are to follow :-)